Once Upon A Time...Happily Ever After...?

We've all heard stories that begin & end that way.  We may even have hoped that our life would look something like some of those stories or prayed that our own happily ever after would come sooner than later.  I know that I am for sure one of those who had these hopes in life.  I had dreams of being married, having a family, living in suburbia with a white picket fence and staying at home with my kids.  I had dreams of volunteering in classrooms, church and community organizations.  I had dreams of being a woman to be proud of.  I had dreams that, at times, I don't believe will ever come true.

But then I wake up from my pity party.  I realize that my happily ever simply looks different.  The my once upon a time is just a longer time frame than others.  I realize that God put me in the here and the now for a reason.  I realize that this verse has more meaning to it that I ever would have believed before:

"Who can say but that God has brought you into the palace for just such a time as this?" Esther 4:14 (TLB)

I know that I have a past and a story to tell.  I know that God gave me these things in life in order to help me help others.  I know that while I may not be a wife or a mom yet, I have been able to experience things that I would not have had the chance to if I had been either of those things.  I am able to spend time with my family and my nephews and my niece and love on others that I wouldn't be able to if I was busy with a family of my own.  I have had the chance to move from state to state in order to pursue dreams and passions.  I have been able to take time to restore and rebuild relationships that I wasn't sure would ever be healed.  I have had the chance to make friends that will last a lifetime because of the fact that I could move and find healing in my own life.  I have had the opportunity to pursue multiple degrees and search out my true heart passions because I didn't have evening/weekend commitments.

I guess I say all of this to say that while my once upon a time and my happily ever after have turned out to look totally different than I would have thought when I was a little girl dressed up as a princess, I wouldn't have it any other way.  It is what has made me who I am.  It is what has made my "happily" ever current possible.  I choose to make the best of the situation and not live in my pity party.  I choose to serve those around me and love on them the way that I long to be loved one day.  I choose to spend time serving others and pouring myself into relationships and growth.  I choose to live a life of happiness.

I pray that the lyrics of this song are truly what I live for:

Let the glory of the Lord
Rise among us
Let the glory of the Lord
Rise among us
Let the praises of the King
Rise among us
Let it rise