When Enough IS Enough

Have you ever had that feeling in life where you just feel like it’s time to say enough is enough to a situation, moment, issue or relationship?  Have you ever felt that you simply can’t move forward because of the situation you’re in?

I have spent the past month really pondering how to live a life where I don’t have to say those things.  Where I don’t have to get fed up and frustrated and lose it.

And then I figured out the answer.

Want to know what it is?  Any guesses?

BOUNDARIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have learned, sadly the hard way, the importance of boundaries.  And I want to dispel a myth!  Boundaries are not selfish, mean, against anyone/thing or dangerous.

Boundaries have a place in everyone’s lives and it’s time we all understand that!

So, my challenge to you, today, is to set one new boundary.  And tell me how it goes!

End of an Era

In 48 hours an era in my life will officially come to a close.  I will finally close a book that some days felt would never be closed.  I will wave goodbye to a very long process in my life. I will complete a dream.  In 48 hours, I will officially have graduated with a second masters degree.

I am feeling a bit sentimental about all of it.  You see, I was the girl that wasn’t sure she would ever finish her undergraduate career, let alone one masters degree.  I was the girl who didn’t care about school/studying and would rather live a social life.  I was the girl who didn’t really care to attend classes or do what was needed.

And now, I can officially say I’m done with two master’s degrees and that I’m stinking proud!  I’ve been in school for what feels like forever.

I’ve been asked a lot lately when I plan to go back to school again.  And to those people, I simply laugh.  I’m not 100% sure I’ll never go back but I can say for now, I’m pleased with the level of education I have achieved and I have no desire to go back anytime soon.

I guess I share all of this with you to tell you that you can do it too.  Even if people have told you that you can’t, you can!  Even if you have never believed you could do it, you can!  Even if you don’t have an end goal in sight, you can!

God has given you more strength, willpower, get up and go, and gumption than you know.  If you are questioning if you can do it, just remember, you once had to learn to use a toilet, and you succeeded at that.  So in reality, you can do pretty much anything!

Just Remember

I want to start by saying that this post is filled with emotions and likely quite raw…don’t say you weren’t warned.

I spent yesterday and today with my family.  They are phenomenal. I so enjoy spending time with my nephews, sister/brother in law, and parents.  Watching them experience new things in life and getting to love on them is such an amazing gift.  I am so thankful that I have a close relationship with all of them and am able to spend that time.

But today, as I drove away from my time with them, I couldn’t help but weep.  And by weep I mean a really, really ugly cry.  The tears have been pretty consistent since then as well.  Those tears are tears I had prayed I wouldn’t cry today.  I told myself that I was going to hold it together this year and that I wouldn’t let it get to me.

And then I sat down at lunch and had to admit that I didn’t have any kids.  And saying those words made me want to run out of the restaurant and never come back.  It made me want to just ignore that it’s Mother’s Day.  It made me want to get a re-do on my life.

You see, I am 31.  I am single.  I live alone.  I have to make ends meet on my own.  I come home to an empty apartment.  I watch my nephews give their mommy amazing cards and get so jealous.  I know jealousy isn’t right but I also know that it’s not something I can just stop on my own.

I talk to people who try to encourage me by making statements like: “but you can have so much freedom without children” or “you’re time will come” or “God’s just preparing the perfect situation for you”.  And yes, I certainly pray that all of those things are accurate and true.  But sadly, that doesn’t make my apartment seem more full.  That doesn’t add a car seat to my vehicle.  That doesn’t make my mama heart feel better.  It doesn’t make the “biological time clock” tick any slower.

It’s days like today that I just want to be a recluse.  I just want to hide and not answer my phone (okay, I’ve already done that multiple times today, if I’m being honest) and not come out until all this Mother’s Day stuff is over.  But then that’s not fair to those who are mothers and those who deserve to be celebrated and loved.

So, after 31 Mother’s Days, I can only hope and pray that I am the only one struggling with these feelings and that no one else is having to live in this pain.

Good for the Soul

Have you ever spent a weekend away, only to return and feel like your soul was just recharged and you are so full?

I had that experience this weekend.  I was able to get away, to Waverly, Nebraska, to spend time at a beautiful homestead.  I spent the weekend with a friend from Minnesota and the owner of the property in Nebraska.  We spent our time crafting, eating, laughing, talking, antiquing, and just enjoying each other’s presence.  We stayed right on property, in the “summer kitchen” and had such a great time.

Thank you so much, Rachel, for hosting Megan and I.  I truly appreciate it.

You should all check out www.handmadeu.com.  Rachel is amazing and you would all love her!  She hosts different art retreats and brings in incredible instructors.

And really, who wouldn’t want to craft in this beautiful barn!